I don't remember how the rest of the song goes! But, seriously, here's the deal. There's no doubt that it's been quiet around these parts lately. I don't know what it is, but there's something about this place that I just... I just don't feel connected anymore.
This has been my home on the interwebs for almost four years, almost half of my teenage life. But that's the thing: this blog has been a part of my teenage life. I'm not longer a teenager. I'm two months fresh off of my twentieth birthday, closing one chapter in my life and getting ready to enter into a new one.
There just wasn't a way to reflect that in the blog. There just wasn't. I feel refreshed about being twenty. The start of a new decade. But the blog didn't. The blog held stories of the life of a strange, awkward, clumsy teenager.
And yes, I'm still awkward and clumsy, but I feel like, in the pass year, I've developed more grace - not just balance wise, but character wise. I've outgrown this little blog.
So, it's time to say good bye. At least to Lala Land, Howdy Girl, Laura Elizabeth, whatever you call it. I'm moving on. I'm moving to a new home on the interwebs. A little place called A Little Bit Stronger. I sincerely hope you'll join me there as I explore college and these crazy twenties!
Posted by Laura Elizabeth at 11:00 AM
Every week we link up with Ashley from Hello Nature to share what we're grateful for.
space heaters during this ridiculously cold weather . a great mary kay meeting . closure on some big decisions in my life . some fun time with my mom . seeing friends I've missed . great movies . cleaning out trash and junk I no longer need . coming to the end of writer's block . excitement for the future
what are you thankful for this week?
I'm an overachiever, a do-it-all. My life is a complex dance, throwing one thing in the air long enough to balance five other things. It's worked for a while, I mean, here's just a short list of what I do on a daily basis.
- Mary Kay
- Music Ministry at my church (which is kind of tied in with work)
it's a lot. A lot, a lot. And when someone takes on that much, something is going to bust the dam if something doesn't change.
I've spent a lot of time in therapy really coping with my hand of cards from life. Yes, I may be happy-go-lucky a lot of the time, but I suffer from depression. Depression is a shadow, even when you can't see it, it's lurking. I've realized, taking on so much stuff was subconsciously done on purpose. If I'm always busy, I can't sit around and think or mope. It keeps depression away. Sometimes.
I've got four semesters (and two minimesters) before I graduate. I'm graduating in December 2015. It's possible. The only problem is a lot of writing. Between Fall 2014-Fall 2015, I'll be taking three to four high intensity writing classes every semester.
Just thinking it about it now, it's hard to think about how draining that will be. I would not be surprised if I don't publish another book after The Assassin. At least, not until after graduation. Maybe, but I doubt it. The last thing I'll want to do after writing papers is write a book. At least, I doubt it. Too early to tell.
School is obviously most important, even if I don't always want it to be. I know this summer, I won't go to Mary Kay seminar because I'll be in classes. But, even sooner, I think it's time to hang up the hat on running a photography business.
It's just not something I'm whole-heartly passionated about, and while I'll still do fun shoots with my friends, it's just not something I'm wanting to do anymore.
I need to dedicate myself back to my writing and my school and other aspects of life that I enjoy.
What a year 2013 was. I think about all the crazy things I've done and man, 99% of that was before I was 20. But, now I am twenty, and I'm loving it.
Last week, I realized just how crazy my semester was. I moved apartments twice in a week, the starter in my car died, I went to the ER after a head injury, had my car broken into, found out that some people are jerks when dealing with business, and suffered from stomach issues the whole semester.
And I still survived it all. It just makes me realize, even when I feel weak and at the bottom, I've got a massive work ethic and I just keep on pushing.
That was last semester and I'm crossing my fingers that this semester is a little bit calmer in terms of unexpected hurdles. Guess we'll find out in a week and a half, classes start next Wednesday and I go back to Huntsville Sunday evening.
So, it's a few days late, but here are some monthly goals, and some year goals I'm looking forward to.
This year, I really want to grasp a hold of time management. As a college kid, I spend a lot of time doing things I can cut out: napping, spending 45 minutes on Facebook, eating too much. I really need to utilize the time I have because, well, it's the only time I have.
Continue journalling every night
Read every night (started The Hunger Games again last night)
More praying this advent season
Organize and deep clean my bedroom before I leave for a month
pick up on Mary Kay again (school kind of bogged me down)
Plan Mass Music for long term.
Finish this round of edits for The Assassin
book cover!!! (for real this time)
So, I kind of missed in December. After a rough semester, I came home, started writing and was going well until the end of my trip to Austin. Haven't written anything since. THANK YOU WRITERS BLOCK. Also, vacation brain is really strong right now.
Finish The Assassin rewrite
Start The Assassin edits
Plan music for the student masses this semester
BOOK COVER, I'M TELLIN YA IT'S COMING
Work on Mary Kay
gym, gym, gym!!
Not many goals, but honestly, I've got two things I'm running through my life right now: faith and simplicity.
This year, I've also got some yearly goals:
Size 12 pants. You + Me, it's so happening, I promise. It's been a long time, but we'll reunite.
The Assassin release day. WHOOP WHOOP. July is gonna be big, y'all.
Sales Director - this is going to be a tough one, but I'm praying that God will introduce the women in my life who will help me build my team.
Eat better. I've neglected changing my eating habits, but I really need to change them to help fight my hypothyroidism.
Really enjoy life in the moment.
Linking up with Ashley from Hello Nature to share the things we're grateful for.
new year . waking up late on vacation . seeing family I haven't seen in a year . going to the gym . feeling the effects of going to the gym . meeting a Mary Kay Sales Director who is also a bearkat alumni! . a fresh start . dog walks with my mama . writing marathons . a new planner to help simplify my life . Mary Kay meetings . warm day before a massive cold front
what are you grateful for?